10/05/11

     It is amazing what God has chosen to teach me during this time of testing. Things that I have been trying to deal with most of my life have been covered by His love and grace. 

     Everyone who knows me knows my childhood was less that desirable. So I guess that‘s why the words to the song “I Am New” has affected me so strongly. I had a real epiphany the other day. The words that touched me most strongly are: I’m dearly loved, beloved, accepted and worthy. These are the things that I did not have during my childhood and have so desperately needed and desired all my life. God has given me those things but I had not felt it in my being until I heard those words. I no longer have that void in my spirit for God was always there with His love and acceptance and counting me worthy. I just was not trusting and open enough to feel it in my heart. You can not imagine what a change this has made in me. What my earthly father never gave me, my Heavenly Father has given me in abundance. God’s word is full of the truth of this.
     Somehow music reaches me in a place that nothing else can. Perhaps that may be true for everyone and that’s why it is so important to have good music in your life. Music is a great learning tool. If you can put a list of facts to a tune you can remember it so much easier. Did you ever learn the books of the Bible to a little tune? You never forgot them did you? I often sing it to myself if I am looking for one of those books that is hard to find.
     So, once again, God has provided my desires.
    “Delight yourself in the Lord, and He will give you the desires of your heart.” 
Psalm 37:4 Good night.